Reading: Lots of Palm stuff: websites and newsgroups and manuals, oh my! Yes, Tab bought me my very own Palm IIIx. More on this oh-so-seductive gadget in a future entry.

Watching: Sports Night. It's even better this year than last.

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I'm back!

Did you miss me? I missed you. It felt strange not to update this journal over the past week, but I needed the time to get some stuff figured out. I don't know if I have all the answers, but I do have a clearer idea of my priorities.

One of those priorities, I've determined, is this online journal. Though I would continue to write without it, I would not do so consistently. This week I discovered that I need the accountability that comes from knowing that there are people out there who want to read what I write. Making the commitment to update the journal regularly compels me to observe and contemplate the events of my day, instead of spending it in a haze of daydreams and half-articulated thoughts, as I am all too likely to do. And knowing that others are going to read what I write helps me stay focused and causes me to consider how best to express my thoughts.

To all of you out there reading: Thank you!

So how did I spend my hiatus? Well, for one thing, Tab and I celebrated our tenth anniversary last Thursday, October 14. Just the fact that we're now in the second decade of our marriage should be enough for a week-long celebration, don'tcha think? In reality, we only had an evening out together--dinner at our favorite restaurant and dessert at Borders--and considered ourselves lucky to have that.

We wanted to have our anniversary dinner at the Yellow Brick Toad, the restaurant where we got married. Since the Toad is a forty-minute drive away, the logistics were too difficult to arrange on a weeknight. So we opted instead for the Blue Danube, a charming little establishment in Chambersburg, the restaurant district of our city. We both love the Blue Danube's central European cuisine.

Ten years is a milestone, but what astonishes me is just how fast those years have passed. Of course, it has not been uninterrupted connubial bliss. We have gone through some difficulties, and I expect we will do so again. What gets us through those rough times, once we get past the anger, is the realization that we are teammates, not adversaries, in this game of life. What an amazing concept that is for someone who considered herself a loner and an outsider for most of her early life. Until I met Tab, I was like Kipling's Cat Who Walked By Himself. How thrilling, how wonderful to meet another cat who wanted to walk with me!

Tab makes me laugh. His hugs cheer and strengthen me when I am feeling low. His kisses make me feel like I'm 24 again and we've just met. My day is not complete until I share its details with him. I love to see him at play with our sons, all three of whom look like small copies of him. I plan to spend the rest of my life waking up with him in the morning and falling asleep with him by my side at night.

I love you, Tab, more than I can ever say.

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